" MI MAMA AMPARO"

I HAVE FOUND THAT NO MATTER WHO COMES INTO YOUR LIFE NO ONE CAN EVER BE MORE IMPORTANT THAN YOUR FAMILY...

ON THRUSDAY JANUARY 8TH, 2009

THE DOCTORS TOLD US THAT MY MOMS CANCER HAS SPREAD TO HER RIGHT LUNG AND LIVER.

SHE HAS BEEN UNDERGOING CHEMO & RADIATION BUT APPARENTLY IT HAS NOT BEEN WORKING AT ALL.

ALTHOUGH IT IS SO HARD TO UNDERSTAND WHY GOD ALLOWS THIS LITTLE BY LITTLE IM COMING TO MY OWN CONCLUSIONS ABOUT THIS WHOLE SITUATION.

SURE IM NOT GOD NOR ARE MY THOUGHTS HIS AND VICE VERSA, BUT WHEN I PRAY FOR UNDERSTANDING I BELIEVE THAT HE GIVES IT TO ME.

JUST AS GOD HIMSELF SACRIFICED HIS OWN SON FOR US " SINNERS "

I BELEIVE THAT GOD IS USING MY MOTHER TO SACRIFICE HERSELF FOR THE FAMILY.

IT MAY SOUND WEIRD OR MAYBE IT DOESNT MAKE ANY SENSE BUT I BELIEVE GOD HAS MYSTERIOUS WAYS OF WORKING OUT THINGS FOR HIS PURPOSE...

ALTHOUGH I WILL NOT KNOW WHY SHE WAS PICKED FOR THIS RIGHT NOW ITS ONLY A MATTER OF TIME FOR IT TO BE MANIFESTED.

I ALSO BELIEVE THAT GOD PREPARED ME FOR THIS A LONG TIME AGO.

THAT IS WHY I THINK THAT TODAY I AM ABLE TO KEEP STRONG.

DO NOT GET ME WRONG I CRY ALMOST EVERYDAY AND MY THOUGHTS ARE PRETTY MUCH ENDLESS BUT I KNOW THAT EVERYTHING WILL BE ALRIGHT IN THE END BECAUSE SHE IS ONE STRONG WOMAN THAT REFUSES TO GIVE UP.

I ADMIRE THAT FROM HER.......

MAINLY THE MEN ARE THE HEAD OF THE HOUSEHOLD BUT IN THIS CASE MY MOTHER IS THE HEAD OF IT ALL, SHE IS THE KEY TO THIS WHOLE FAMILY.

LIFE IS FULL OF SURPRISES SOME GOOD AND SOME BAD BUT WE LEARN FROM THEM ALL NO DOUBT ABOUT THAT.

LATELY I HAVE JUST BEEN WANTING TO KEEP TO MYSELF AND IF I COULD RUN AWAY TO SOME SECLUDED PLACE BELIEVE ME I WOULD SO DO IT IN A HEART BEAT.

MY NIGHTS HAVE CONSISTED OF SLEEPLESS NIGHTS, TEARS, AND WRITING DOWN EVERY SINGLE THING I FEEL.

I DONT THINK THAT ANYONE CAN UNDERSTAND ME UNLESS THEY ARE OR WERE IN MY POSITION AT ONE POINT.

BUT APPRECIATE EVERYONE WHO SPITS SOME COMFORTING WORDS AND OR PRAY FOR ME FROM TIME TO TIME.

I WOULD LIKE TO THANK ALL MY FRIENDS WHO HAVE TAKEN THE TIME OUT TO VISIT MY MOTHER AND HAVE PRAYED AND CONTINUE TO PRAY FOR HER.

LET ME TELL YOU THAT IT MEANS THE WORLD TO ME TO HAVE SUCH AWESOME FRIENDS LIKE THE HAND FULL THAT I HAVE.

ALSO FOR THOSE WHO CAN NOT MAKE IT BUT CALL ON A DAILY BASIS TO ASK HOW SHE IS DOING AND OR WHO TEXT ME WITH WORDS OF ENCOURAGEMENT THANK YOU ONCE AGAIN SO MUCH...

NOW I LEAVE YOU WITH SOME RECENT PHOTOS OF MY MOTHERS STAY IN THE HOSPITAL ENJOY AND PLEASE CONTINUE TO PRAY FOR HER AND US.

ONE OF THE MANY BATTLE SCARS THAT CANCER HAS LEFT ON HER..

MY MOM OFTEN GETS UP AND ADMIRES THE VIEW FROM THE HOSPITALS WINDOW

MY DAD TELLING HER THAT NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS HE WILL ALWAYS BE BY HER SIDE.....



ADMIRING THE SNOW.....



SHE IS REAPING WHAT SHE SOWED THROUGH OUT THE YEARS..
SHE HAS BEEN VERY LUCKY TO HAVE MANY VISITORS SHOWING HER SUPPORT DURING HER STAY AT THE HOSPITAL.... SOME OF HER GREAT FRIENDS,
GUSTAVO & RITA......




EVERY CHANCE I GET I TRY TO CAPTURE MY MOMENTS WITH HER BEFORE I LOOSE THEM COMPLETELY........






SO FAR MY MOTHER IS IN GOOD SPIRITS AND SAYS THAT SHE WILL FIGHT TIL THE END NO MATTER WHAT......