" OH HOW I WISH THIS WAS ME RIGHT NOW "

THEY SAY A PICTURE CAN SAY A THOUSAND WORDS BUT MORE SO A THOUSAND THOUGHTS!
I FIND THAT TO BE MORE TRUER THAN EVER NOW.
I CAME ACROSS THIS PICTURE OUT OF PURE COINCIDENCE, BUT WHEN I SAW IT I KNEW THAT THAT'S THE PLACE WHERE I WISH I WAS IN.
NO LONGER DO I FEEL GUILTY FOR MY ACTIONS NOR DO I REPENT ON THEM EITHER.
ITS LIKE SIN DOESNT EVEN FEEL LIKE SIN ANY MORE...
IT SOUNDS WRONG AND IT IS!!

BUT THAT'S THE POINT WHERE I HAVE COME TO.
I HAVE DONE, SAID, THOUGHT AND ACTED OUT ON SO MANY DIFFERENT THINGS THAT I KNOW ARE SO WRONG FOR ME AND OF ME.

BUT YET I STILL DO THEM.
I FEEL LIKE PAUL FROM THE BIBLE...
IM LEARNING TO LET GO OF THINGS AND PEOPLE WHO ARENT DOING ME ANY GOOD.

THIS WILL HURT SOME PEOPLE BUT IN ALL HONESTY IT'S LIKE I DONT CARE IF I LOOSE CERTAIN PEOPLE....

I WISHED I CARED MORE BUT I SINCERLEY DONT!

THAT'S WHY
I HAVE TO GET TO THIS PLACE WHERE I FEEL THE GUILT ONCE AGAIN.
TO THE PLACE WHERE COMPASSION IS AND WHERE CONVICTION COULD BEFRIEND ME ONCE AGAIN.

I HAVE TO, HAVE TO GET THERE!