" FINALLY SHE IS HOME "

TODAY AFTER 1 WEEK AND A HALF IN THE HOSPITAL MY MOTHER IS FINALLY BACK HOME WITH US ONCE AGAIN.

I CAN NOT EVEN BEGIN TO WRITE HOW I SEE HER WITH OUT CRYING ANY MORE.

SHE IS SO THIN AND SO WEAK TO EVEN DO ANYTHING.

I HAVE BEEN SO HEART BROKEN AND SO OUT OF IT THIS PAST WEEK.

THE TEARS DO NOT SEEM TO STOP NOR HAVE I GOTTEN A DECENT NIGHT OF SLEEP.

I HAVE MADE THE CHOICE TO KEEP TO MYSELF FOR A COUPLE OF WEEKS MAYBE EVEN MONTHS.

I JUST WANT TO BE ALONE WITH MY THOUGHTS.

PEOPLE TELL ME THAT IT IS NOT GOOD FOR ME BUT I SAY OTHER WISE.....

I CAN NOT EVEN BEGIN TO EXPLAIN HOW HARD IT IS TO KNOW THAT YOU ARE LOOSING YOUR MOM OR A LOVED ONE...

I DO NOT KNOW HOW LIFE IS WITHOUT HER..

NOR DO I THINK IM READY TO FIND OUT.

SHE MEANS THE WORLD TO ME!!!!!!!