" IM SO TIRED OF IT ALL "

I REALIZE NOW THAT IM IN THIS BY MYSELF..

AND THE ONLY ONE WHO WILL BE ALWAYS BY MY SIDE IS GOD..

I CAN NOT RELY ON FRIENDS TO MAKE ME FEEL BETTER NOR TO BE THERE FOR ME BECAUSE I KNOW THEY WONT...

IT SADDENS ME IN SUCH A DEEP WAY WHEN I KNOW THAT I GIVE MY ALL AND GET NOTHING IN RETURN....

IF I COULD I WOULDN'T TALK TO NO ONE BUT I STILL HAVE A JOB WHERE I MUST INTERACT WITH PEOPLE AND I ALSO HAVE MY FAMILY & FRIENDS....

BUT I THINK I NEED SOME ME, MYSELF, & I TIME...

I THINK THAT BEING ALONE FOR SOME TIME WILL DO ME GOOD AND I KNOW THAT I SAID THAT BEFORE BUT I COULDN'T DO IT, BUT NOW IM MORE DETERMINED THAN I EVER WAS BEFORE.....

I DO NOT CARE ABOUT WHAT PEOPLE THINK OF ME NOR IF THEY THINK IM IGNORING THEM ETC...

THEY WILL REALIZE IT ONE DAY SOONER OR LATER THAT I NO LONGER WISH TO BE THEIR REBOUND IN ANYTHING....

IM TIRED OF THE WAY I HAVE BEEN TREATED & IGNORED WHEN ALL I DO IS SHOW THEM THEY ARE LOVED BEYOND MEASURE....

" MISTY BLUE "

I CAN'T HELP IT, BUT TO CRY WHEN I HEAR THIS SONG....